I loath the idea of always having to up hold my parents honor. Why the hell cant the up hold their own damn honor? Im a kid. I wanna make mistakes I wanna have fun. I wanna get in trouble and get good grades. Middle easterners suck man. Like, you dont understand how much pressure it is to be responsible for something like that. All eyes on you at all times. The fact that I have to prep myself for the judgements for my hair or my clothing or if I dont sit properly or if I talk to much or I dont talk enough or if Im not mannered enough every time I step foot outside my house. Im so fed up w this bullshit. I dont want to properly tuck one foot behind the other when sitting in a skirt. I dont even want to wear a skirt I want to wear jeans w converse and not worry about how wide my legs are spread when sitting . I just dont want to worry about other people anymore.
"I never want to love someone like that, so much that there would be no room left for myself, so much that I wouldn’t be able to survive if he left me."